i've spent a fair bit of time these past few weeks thinking about the breakup. what went wrong, what was my responsibility, what was the ex-factor's etc.
i'm not going to lie and say that things were his fault when they weren't. i bear a great deal of responsibility for the problems in the relationship, and while it takes two to tango i don't think its fair to talk smack about someone who was really great to me. i'd like to think things weren't completely my fault but i need to accept that a lot of the problems we had were some of my own issues as well.
i ended things badly, really badly and while i don't think i will forgive myself for that i can't continue to beat myself up about it and feel guilty. what's done is done. i've tried to apologize for it, it's time to move on.
i cannot wait to get on that plane tomorrow, toronto has left a sour taste in my mouth these last couple of weeks.