Thoughts from the Post-Scriptum

while i have a serious addiction to brunch and all things surrounding brunch i absolutely hate eating breakfast. it's not that i don't like breakfast food, i would eat cereal for dinner if people didn't judge. i'm just never coherent enough in the mornings to pull it together and i'm usually in a rush to get out the door because i've slept in or procrastinated getting out of bed. i make myself a shake and sip it while i get ready and get my stuff organized for the day. it also beats the hell out of a cup of coffee and bagel which gives me major heartburn, and since i'm trying to ease off my caffeine habit (aka less that 6 cups a day) it's a good way to start.

1 cup soymilk
1-2 bananas
2 scoops protein powder
1 tablespoon peanut butter

throw the whole mess into a magic bullet for a few mins.

best fucking breakfast smoothie ever.

cheesy post ahead... please skip over it if you are going to roll your eyes.

the good thing about not having a television is that i don't have to hear or interact with 9-11 hoopla that i'm sure is all over the major networks.

i have to say while the event was a tragedy i hope that people also remember that there have been many tragedies and massacres and traumatic events all over the world at the hands of U.S. imperialism.

so instead of just remembering the twin towers and the attack on US soil, remember rwanda, darfur, chile, and bosnia. remember haiti, palestine, iraq. remember that a good deal of people in the world are still dying from the crippling effects of poverty, and from diseases ranging from simple diarrhea to illnesses like AIDS and malaria.

remember that there is still a great deal of injustice.

thank you.

i had a breakthrough today. which opened the floodgates whole new stresses and complications. the worst part is, someone i don't really like right now was right.

damn.

rest in peace grandpa.

"How do you know how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love, or too much to ask of someone? When is it all just too much for us to bear?"

~Grey's Anatomy

dear readers i encourage everyone to check out the latest post from Sean over at the Fortress of Solitude.

if you are one of those people... well, no comment.

i think i'm in love

not really. but the boy can cook and has acheived perfect stubble length in almost all his photos.

i either love him or hate him (read: jealous), i can't decide.

it's been a busy day!

didn't get a ton of sleep last night and the alarm this morning came WAY too fast, but i hiked up to york and got myself ready for my first week of tutorials (i call them the dog and pony show)

the first week is always the best, you get to keep it light, introduce yourself and call it a day. i'm excited because my class is senior students, they know the drill and the game which in some ways will make it easier to get through the tutorials.

i just hope marking doesn't suck as much as it did last year...

i can't really afford it right now, but i bought a new iPod nano.

and yes, i'm counting down the days!

about two weeks ago i had a moment that has changed everything, sitting there crying and finally recognizing what has been wrong for the last nine years has made me feel as though a giant weight has been lifted off my shoulders. i am starting to feel more at peace, shifts in perspective have occurred, i no longer have a constant feeling of panic and anxiety at the pit of my stomach.

i'm learning to forgive myself and love myself and the process has been amazing. it's still new and a little scary but i wouldn't trade it for the world.

i just wanted to share that.

i just bought a new iPod and i've been tracking it using my FedEx tracking number...

Sep 26, 2007
5:03 AM In transit MEMPHIS, TN
12:10 AM Arrived at FedEx location MEMPHIS, TN

Sep 25, 2007
5:19 PM Departed FedEx location ANCHORAGE, AK
1:36 PM Arrived at FedEx location ANCHORAGE, AK

9:45 PM In transit SHENZHEN CN
11:49 AM Left origin SHENZHEN CN
5:12 AM Picked up SHENZHEN CN
4:13 AM Package data transmitted to FedEx

Global systems of capital seriously freak me out.

my heart goes out to the burmese buddhist monks.