warning... stream of consciousness ahead:
slowly working my way through Butler's bodies that matter, seriously, how can you not love her work? it's so deep and wonderful, her ideas are so nuanced and delicious. she's infinitely complicated but simple at the same time her writing can be painful and difficult (can we say gender trouble?) or clear and precise. butler again tomorrow and then a little foucault... then hopefully a synthesis paper for my supervisor by 2pm on monday. funfunfun!
i started the advanced teaching certificate at ryerson and while it's an amazing program and the skills i'm going to learn will be really useful i'm getting tired of the "teach with love" mantra in postsecondary education these days. teach by ruling with an iron fist... teach through tough love and fear.
lately i can't stop thinking about PhD admissions and the terror of not getting in, knowing that my program is only taking 10 students and over 100 applications came in is seriously freaking me out. i'm pretty sure i was passed up for a SSHRC this year which has me bummed as well. more than anything if i have to tell my friends that i didn't get into a PhD program i don't know how i will deal with the shame and horror of being rejected.
i'm wondering if maybe some time away from academia in "the real world" wouldn't be beneficial, i could always come back and do a PhD later... or take the corporate world by storm . i've been thinking about applying for some jobs and see what happens, maybe turn my CV into a resume and put some feelers out there. my contract is up in april and i'm out of funding in may.
i've been spending a few days at my parent's place... since my dad busted his wrist he can't shovel the snow so rather than traveling back and forth i decided i'd hang out at home for a few days. while it's nice to have someone else cook and all the nice amenities of home i miss my laptop and wireless internet connection. i'm tempted to set up a wireless network here at home and have my parents join the rest of us in the 21st century, cables are just so 1999. it's been a fun few days but i want to go back to my apt. ASAP. so if anybody wants to take over my snow removal obligations just let me know... it's great cardio.
i haven't been to the gym in days and i'm feeling utterly abject... i need to get back in the swing of things this weekend.
i'm absolutely DROOLING over mac's new timecapsule and macbook air... while i'm several years away from another computer purchase i have to admit i understand the temptation. the machine may be a bit slower but i'm a little in love with the idea of having such a light notebook.
i went to my first burlesque show and i LOVED it, it was campy and fun and i had a great time, i will most definitely be going again. any takers?
finally bought a lemon zester for martinis today... i'm going to bring back the end of the day cocktail in my apt. i think. it just seems like a sensible way to end a hectic workday... with a three ounce serving of ice cold gin.